Impatient & Infertile

We really should have a support group that we could get in a circle and share the stories and emotions that come with infertility issues. Most days I am strong and the rest of the world even those I am close to are usually unaware that an unstable and bitter monster lives within me that can’t grasp why the rest of the world can acheive pregancy while after 3.5 years I remain unable to. I should say that I have the most gorgeous daughter who is 4.5 and is the light of my life. Had I had never had her then maybe I could get past this longing to be pregnant but she gave light to my dark times and laughter to my quiet days and hugs and affirmations of everything I have ever wanted to be…a mom. So, let this be my disclaimer that I am blissfully happy with my daughter and my longing to have another doesn’t for one second minimize the blessing I have in being her mom.